Acts 20:22(GNT) And now, in obedience to the Holy Spirit I am going to Jerusalem, not knowing what will happen to me there. 23 I only know that in every city the Holy Spirit has warned me that prison and troubles wait for me. 24 But I reckon my own life to be worth nothing to me; I only want to complete my mission and finish the work that the Lord Jesus gave me to do, which is to declare the Good News about the grace of God.
We come now to examine another area into which our Lord, eager to obtain purpose from our lives, may be leading us: that of ambiguity and uncertainty. By ambiguity, I mean those situations we sometimes find ourselves in where the Lord’s purposes are not clear, and by uncertainty, I mean the feelings we get when we don’t know which direction to take on the road ahead. Are you the kind of person who likes to see the way ahead as far as you possibly can? Do you find yourself getting irritated and frustrated when the Lord unfolds His purposes just one step at a time? If so, then your irritation is saying something about you as a person.
What is it saying? Perhaps it is saying that in this area of your life, you are “a corn of wheat afraid to die”; you are fearful of trusting yourself to the unseen and unknown purposes of God. There isn’t a child of God reading my words today; who hasn’t been called to walk this path of uncertainty and ambiguity, and there may be many who are there at this moment.
The apostle Paul, in the verse before us today, was in this situation when he said: “I am going to Jerusalem, not knowing what will happen to me there” (v.22, GNB). What an honest admission: going – yet not knowing. Yet there seems to be no anxiety or apprehension in that statement. And why? Because the great apostle had surrender so much of his self-interest. Having surrendered to God, he was not at the mercy of circumstances, situations, feelings – anything. Sure of God – the one great Certainty, he needed to fear no uncertainty. How about you where do you stand today? May the Lord bless you real good!
Prayer: O God, I see that unless my certainty is in You – the Divine Certainty – I will be at the mercy of all uncertainties. Forgive my little shortfalls of self-dependence. Help me to live in God-dependence. In Jesus name Amen.